What I want to be is so far from what I am.
Still want to be.
Still strive to be.
Still find myself sinking in quicksand.
The more I struggle, the more I seem to sink.
Should I keep trying, or give up?
I feel like giving up, but instinct says survive.
Godly or Earthly.
I haven't found success.
I fail miserably.
Yet something still strives to be alive.
I want to give more.
I want to be more.
I want to thrive.
I want to encourage others,
But find myself stuck in anxiety and frustration
That make me bitter and difficult to approach.
I am aware of just how I push others away,
But find myself struggling to break free of that.
God help me. I will press on.